最近的我...

最近...............
我............
我............
越來越不勇敢,
越來越不堅強,
越來越容易哭,
怎麼搞???


那個堅強又獨立的我去了哪裡???
還記得一個人離開家鄉,
自己到這裡讀書,
完全不會害怕,
而且也很獨立,
只是偶爾會想念家!!!


現在的我,
超級超級超級超級超級超級
超級超級超級超級超級超級
超級超級超級超級超級超級
超級超級超級超級超級超級
超級超級超級超級超級超級
超級超級超級超級超級超級
想家!!!


好像快點放假,
不想繼續讀書,
好累!!!好壓力!!!!

tears dropped because of I miss my family very much this few days!!!

full of mood to update my blog,

so here I'm.

These few days,

no internet access at hostel,

ITS REALLY BORED!!!

n i just feel like i cant live without facebook or internet!!!

i feels like the end of the world is coming when i nothing to do!!!

luckily i still can sign in fb via mobile!!!

other than that, i used my time to sleep...

hmm....

i know its sound wasting time n life,

but i cant think anything i can do without internet access!!!!

cause of no internet access,

i spent my time thinking of my family...

dad, mom, n brother...

honestly, i miss them very much!!!

i cried when i think of them these 2 nites,

tears dropped withou control,

I MISS MY DAD!!

I MISS MY MOM!!

I MISS MY BROTHER!!

I MISS MY ROOM!!!

I MISS MY BED!!!

I MISS MY PIANO!!!

may be because of loneliness,

so full of feeling...

cry and cry and cry...

its feel better after crying,

yeah,

i really forget the last time when was i cry,

i try to be strong hardly!!!

but,

cried for 2 nites,

i think its enough...

so,

cheer up:)

tomorrow will be a great day^^

addicted wei bo:)

this 2 days was addicted in weibo again...

actually i had start play wei bo last few years,

i started to play it is because mostly of taiwan artists were using,

so i just folo....

now the follower more than 400+++...

muahahahah...

so u can know how crazy am i...

the new version of wei bo just similar with FB,

got chatbox too :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sleep when tired and smile when awake。

累了就睡觉，醒来就微笑。

执着和那份想念

睡不着的夜晚，

依然如此寂寞孤独。。。

一首接一首的疗伤曲，

医治不了你对我的伤害。。

还以为那个开朗的我悄悄回来了，

但事实并不是如此。。

和朋友聊天中，

无意间，

提起了你。。

那些回忆，

那些伤害，

那些为什么，

那些舍不得，

一次过闪过脑海中。。

于是，点击了你的ＦＢ，

发现你得奖了，

在ｍｓｎ　ｃｏｎｇｒａｔｚ了你，

就这样聊起天，

我并不打算告诉你，

我为了你ｅｍｏ，

因为你得奖，

我不想破坏你的情绪，

二来，

有人会去告诉那个人我ｅｍｏ因为你？？？

不觉得很奇怪吗？？

算了吧，

一切都怪我笨，

如果当初没有相信你所谓的承诺，

我今天也不会那么辛苦。。

朋友问我，

我是不是还在期待些什么？

说实话，

我并不知道，

我只知道我要忘记一个人很难，

心里面多多少少都留着一定的位子，

毕竟付出了真心。。

a little surprise~~

today was one of my friend's b'day,

so wish him happy b'day and 

thank you being my "dustbin"

=)

女孩的高跟鞋 ♥

心血来潮想更新部落格，
写一写对全世界的女孩们说的话吧~~


每个女孩都有一双属于自己的高跟鞋，
一辈子只爱那双高跟鞋，
特别细心照顾那双高跟鞋，
也许会穿着那双高跟鞋步入结婚的礼堂，
如果你有这样的高跟鞋，
记得，
好好珍惜你心爱的高跟鞋 ♥


当你发现你再也穿不下那双高跟鞋时，
那就证明你该把它扔了，
不适合就是不适合，
再怎么勉强也没有用。
不管你多莫喜欢那双高跟鞋，
你还是得忍心把它丢掉，
留着纪念也没用，
因为你根本不再需要了。
所谓久的不去，
新的不来。。
世界上还有很多很漂亮很适合你自己的高跟鞋 ♥

a bored saturday

nothing to do...

lying on bed whole day,

so edit pic~~

impression in NUC after 6 months :D

suddenly have the mood to write blog,

because just read a senior's blog about his college life and so on...

after reading his blog,

let me think about the first day of my college life,

and i realize that today was half year anniversary.

Time flies..

experience a lot of things at college,

REALLY!!!  A LOT!!! 

most impressive was FRIENDSHIP!!! 

till now i still having some problem among some friends,

just,

i still dont know should i continue trust the person hv a best friend,

A VERY BEST AND 'TRUSTED' FRIEND!!! 

hmm....

lets talk about other things,

personality???

erm...

yeah,

honestly,i'm changed!ll

from sem 2???may be...

when i just enter this college,

i'm quite social sometimes,

but nowadays,

i prefer stay at room...

being a "ZHAI NV"!!!

there are some reason,

but i wont be mention here,

because i dont want be emo now...

last but not least,

i really enjoy my college life,

its awesome!!!

although sometimes will homesickness, emo or something else,

but it really change me a lot.

for example:-

1. realize how suffer of my lovely mom at home
2. realize parent or family are always support me, no matter what!!
3. human wearing a lot of mask face us
4. STUDIES or your own future is very IMPORTANT!!!
5. meet more friends
6. blog write in english ^^
7. having long hair now :D
8. and so on

yeah,

anyway,

nice to meet you all at Nilai University College XD
thank you all my friends for caring,
will appreciate it ALWAYS♥
(photo will be coming soon)

long hair♥

Hi long hair^^

finally!!!

my darling-jia yee said,

first time saw me long hair :D

sorry la,

i knew my hair longer than u,

dont worry ya,

your hair will GROW ^^

past a silent nite alone, i enjoyed it :)

right now,
its 4.44am~~


well,
my time was totally different,
when u guys was sleeping,
i was full of energy in front of my laptop;
when i was sleeping,
u guys was enjoying ur day~~


finish my MPW exam,
used 2 hours done 3 hours paper,
u will think how can i did it?
let me tell u the truth...
i study from 9pm till the next day 5am..
i slept on 6am,
woke up on 8am...


i felt sleepy after i done my exam,
take a nap on 1pm,
but the stupid thunder woke me up on 5pm,
I WAS TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH SLEEP!!!
9pm continue sleep till 3am,
that why i was free to blogging now..


few more days final exam start,
oops,
i think i was start my final exam already,
everyone was study hard,
how about me?
depends on mood la,
but i know i hv to force myself to study,
juz like how i study for my MPW,
everyone asked me,
why do i so work hard for it?
get a pass mark then okay...


now,
i juz hope my sem break come faster,
i gonna go bak my lovely hometown- TAWAU!!
such a peaceful place,
and i miss my family:)


exam soon,
good luck to everyone,
all the best to you all~~




okay,
share a song to everyone,
close to you by olivia ong,
her songs accom me this whole silent nite~~

good bye sem 1~~

well,
time for update blog,
can clear the spider web at this blog..
(jia yee always complained i didn't update my blog)


TIMES FLIES!!!
its revision week now,
and then final exam,
gonna day bye to my first sem...


yeah,
think back,
i had experienced a lot in my uni life,
no matter happy or sad,
that was apart of my life,
just can admit it~~


it was damn stress,
the first final exam in my life,
insomnia, anorexia ,cried,
sigh~~


used to be la,
since young i had these symptom,
till now still the same,
no matter wht kind of exam..
sometimes it's worst when i escape it,
but i found that,
when i talked with dad i'm stress,
i feel much better,
the supporting of family always beside me,
feel so touch!!
i ♥ u dad^^

my dear piano,
don leave me alone,
i going back soon~~

someone

wish your happy b'day

my beloved,

oops,

i cant call u beloved anymore,

U JUST A PAST TENSE!!

since u broke my heart~~

lost my study mood~~

why am i blogging now?
coz hv to update regularly,
if not my darling jia yee(the one who was in a relationship with my at facebook) say my blog full of spider web,
hahaXD


btw,
let u guys see how she mentioned me at her blog,

[现在对Facebook感到厌倦了，都是mabel拉，整天说她addicted to twitter 了，害到我也有一点被影响了~

说到那位小姐，还没郑重向你们介绍。

来，我要开始咯！

她啊，我都叫她面包/bread的，因为mabel mabel, 面包面包，不觉音都很像吗？哈哈！

她也是我在Facebook的爱人，(in a relationship with mabel xxxxx)

不要误会，我还是很正常的，不是那种ehemm ehemm。（没有要歧视啦，不要误会）

知道她的爱好是什么吗？当然是‘哭’和搞emo咯，还有什么？！

这是她的强项咧~~~

然后啊，很痴心的，对一个人死心塌地，哈哈！

我觉得我刚好相反咧~~（很坏哦？呵呵）

她啊，来了kl那么久，我都还没见过她一面啊! 不是她忙，就是我忙。。。

我不管，找一天你一定要来找我！懂吗？这是命令！！]

erm,
for someone who wanna know her blog,
i'm sorry,
she told me b4,
she wont let u guys know,
she wanna keep it as a secret...
I'M SO SORRY!!!


actually now i should stop blogging and concentrate my study,
because tmr hv a quiz,
but i cant find the mood to study..
during this afternoon,
my mood just full of study,
after study few topic then i have a nap,
who know received call from my dearest mom,
chat a while with her,
then i hope to continue sleep,
but i not sleepy at all and i miss my mom seriously..


then,
a message here,
william invite to take photo since he nothing to do,
so kate, i and other go for shooting,
not bad la...
capture some photo i like...
waiting the photographer edit and upload...

now show u my pic that edited by my darling- jia yee...

she said she love the star :)

simply writing~~

someone said my blog full of spider web...
yeah,
such a long time i didn't update my blog,
so now write somethings here,
if not she will mention me again XD


actually recently a lot of things happen on me,
may be i used to be hide everything inside my heart,
that why i didn't blogging for a long time,
sorry for those who always read my blog....
by the way, i enjoy being a blog reader too,
juz leave some comments at other blog,
can know what are they thinking,
or even know what happen on them...


this few days i was addicted in twitter,
don knw why,
feel that facebook very bored and parents or causin they are playing,
that why no privacy la!!!
so play twitter is more better^^


erm...
dont know what to say now,
so good luck for my test tomorrow,
all the best and good nite to all of u :)
enjoy your day~~

saturday went to time square with geng,
well,
i enjoyed the time,
cute fried rice with two egg yolk ^^

welcome the busy week :)

few days ago,i with pei yoong had a walk campus and a girl's talk with her,
she is the second one i share my things at nilai university college...
recently very close with pei yoong,sally n thung thung,
although we not same course,
but we always meet at canteen during break time...


well,
yesterday went to time square again with kate and lin lin,
btw, i really tired... 
imagine a girl carry more than 10 plastic bag with clothe shopping almost12 hours non-stop,
stand at the ktm for 1 hour...
gosh...
first time shopping till no mood... =(


this week will be an important week for me,
monday mock presentation,wednesday and thursday actual presentation, thursday phy quiz, friday chemis test... 
gonna crazy soon!!!


so good luck for my presentation tmr :)


what a nightmare i had??!!
such a long time u didn't come in my dream,
but this time u really shocked and hurt me in my dream,
totally heart broke

眼泪还是为你而流~~

还是忍不住想起你，
还是一样，
每次开fb,
首先点击你的首页看看是否有任何的更新。。


等了好几天，
终于看到你上线，
压抑不住自己，
和你聊了几句，
要不是明天要考试，
我一定聊很久，
但是我知道我们的话题已经到了尽头，
有时连简单的“嗯”， “哦” 我回不了你，
而是我不知道该会你什么，
只能“。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。”，
好不久“== ”，
除了这些我真的不是会你什么，
因为你的冷淡~~


一个人傻傻忘不掉过去，
一个人傻傻的等待，
还以为有一丝丝的希望，
但每次我都是被伤害的那个~~


我们的过去和回忆还算什么？
永远只是我一个人以为一切很重要，
你会吗？
我猜你不会，
从你让我心碎那一刻起~~

梁靜茹-可惜不是你

可惜不是你，陪我到最后～～

这句熟悉的歌词不断浮现在我脑海里。。

深夜里，

无法入睡，

聆听着你最喜爱的歌手的歌，

我还是控制不了自己去想你。。

还没开始的爱情，

就这样悄悄地离开了我，

断了线的风筝，

就算我再怎么努力追，

我依然抓不住，

因为我已经看不见那个我一直得等待的风筝～～

三更半夜不睡觉，

真的很容易让人ｅｍｏ．．．

要不时为了７个小时后的ｐｈｙ　考试，

我现在不会这么勤力温习，

我应该很舒服躺在我的床上睡觉咯，

不用像现在这么辛苦～～

ｓｕｃｈ　ａ　ｌｏｎｇ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｉ　ｄｉｄｎ＇ｔ　ｕｓｅ　ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ｔｏ　ｔｙｐｅ　ｍｙ　ｂｌｏｇ，

ｗｈｙ？

ｇｕｅｓｓ　ｏｓｏ　ｋｎｏｗ．．．

ａｆｔｅｒ　ｔｈａｔ　ｐａｓｓａｇｅ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｂｌｏｇ，

ｉ　ｄｉｄｎ＇ｔ　ｔｙｐｅ　ｉｎ　ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ．．．

ｗｅｌｌ，

ｊｕｚ　ｕｓｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ，

ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｉ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ａｎ　ｅｍｏ　ｇｉｒｌ，

ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｔｒｙ　ｔｏ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｉｎｓｉｄｅ，

ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｔｒｙ　ｈａｒｄｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｓｍｉｌｅ　ｔｏ　ｕ　ａｌｌ，

ａｔ　ｌｅａｓｔ　ｎｏｗａｄａｙｓ　ｉ　ｃａｎ，

ｂｕｔ　ｐｌｅａｓｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａｌｌｏｗ　ｍｅ　ｅｍｏ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｉｄｎｉｔｅ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ＇ｍ　ａｌｏｎｅ．．．

ｔｈａｔ　ｅｎｏｕｇｈ～～

sometimes i still the same~~

i love my college life extremely,
experience a lot of 'first time'...
happy or sad,
just a part of life,
try to admit what happen on myself,
try to share my happiness to all of you,
I REALLY HOPE!! 


somehow,
i still the emo girl,
silent till very scary,
i force myself stop thinking about u,
but the truth told me i cant...


everyday, 
press in ur fb profile to get ur update news,
when i on fb,
first thing i do is find ur name see whether u on9 or off9,
NOW,
i hugging the bear u gave as the gift of last year valentine,
guess what,
I PURPOSELY CALL MY DAD POS LAJU FOR ME!!! 
but,
u wont be care what happen with me too, isn't?
only the stupid i am cant forget every things that belongs you...

valentine?? so what?

14 February??
the only i remembered was last year valentine day what he was done for me....
till now i cant forget any second that we had before...
guess what am i doing now?
watching his facebook profile, and the msn list,
asked myself,
what am i waiting for?


i knew that i cant wash aways him from my mind,
even the valentine gift he gave last year,
i told dad to pos laju for me(will receive soon),
my b'day present,
i didn't take away from my hp b4,
even my friend wanna have a look, 
i not allow...
those msg u sent b4,
i didn't delete too,
still inside my hp,
sometimes, when i read,
its still make my tears dropped...


from this,
u can know how i appreciated everything u gave...
my dear friends always told me,
i'm a stupid girl...
well,
i admitted..
but how?
i cant do anything too~~
so juz be like that,
i will wait till the end of my life~~~ 

cny is around the conner~~

sorry for these few days didn't update my blog,
because these few days i really late late late late late sleep...
something 4am or 5am...
why?
coz with senior & frens play CS at common room,
from midnite till morning...
haha XD


honestly,
i enjoyed it,
i love my uni life very much..


sat went to shopping with fren,
spent a lots money on shopping everytime,
buy clothers for cny again...


oh ya,
gonna bak to my tawau 3 days later....
i miss my dad, my mom, my bro, MY PIANO, & MY BED!!!
hahahaaaaaaaaa XD


met a photographer at NUC,
so this afternoon took some pic with frens,
well,
i addicted in edit pic jor,
i wanna learn how to use photoshop!!!

wht a bc & tired day...

its 1:33am now...
why so late?
coz juz finish practice for the rehersal orientation nite...


i'm extremely tired,
coz i didn't take my dinner,
during the practice,
gastric pain, & feel sleepy(didn't take a nap for today)..


early morning was wake up,
today was the first lesson for phy,
well,
its not hard tht i think,
may be just start,
erm,
but a lots of things to memorize...


hv to continue to rush my assignment,
good nite all..


topstar,
all the best to everyone=)

be the topstar~~

another tired day,
although morning quite late wake up,
but last nite was late sleep...
hmm... chit chat with fren ma....

morning 11am++ went to servic at college,
first time join & first time went to service by english,
dad, wan me to join,
coz learn english wa...==
well,
honestly, although hv some chinese,
but they talk english,
so,
juz use to be la,
some how,
i still can go to kl service by chinese,
if i wan=)

after a nap,
webcam with family & causin...
well,
i really miss them,
i cant wait for my cny holiday,
i wanna eat mandarin orange!!

i think i gonna sleep now,
tmr still hv class,
its quite tired now,
from 8pm practice the orientation performance till 12am++,
but i haven't done my assignment yet,
tmr nite will be the rehersal,
topstar LETS ROCK IT!!

i love shopping^^

well,
today was a happy day...
coz went to shopping with a geng of friends~~

tht was our first outing to kl,
quite memorable...

the first time i shopping till so tired & happy,
buy alots of things,
for example clothers, shoes, short & so on...

its really super duper cheap,
compare to my hometown( tawau )~`

yeah
i think i love the life at here,
coz of  SHOPPING ^^

exhausted~~

today was a holiday,
wake up 8am++,
then get emo in the morning...
crying,emoing& so on...

fren was syoked coz i didn't speak one word in the morning,
juz used to be la,
i'm emo girl~~ =='''

as plan,
afternoon went to sushi king with fren,
its super duper FULL!!
after tht,
went to graint some a lots of things,
rm100++ used this few second...
GOSH!!
its terrible...
hv to learn how to magane my money well...

today i'm really tired & exhausted,
after bak from shopping,
clear my room directly,
swip the floor,
mop the floor...
its really unbelievable,
coz i'm didn't do any house work b4,
juz like a 'princess' at home..

after tht,
went to jogging & do some gym with fren at NUC,
super duper TIRED!!!

at nite,
skype with family,
talked wht i did today,
they comments is"good good good"
=='''

well,
CNY is getting closer,
saturday will go to kl for shopping,
I CANT WAIT IT!!
XD

你就像泡沫,

瞬间消失在我生命里~~